Hello, I know many of you will read this and think its ridiculous for me to feel this way... but here goes. So in April of 2007 I went on a cruise, I was 17 years old. A few days into the cruise I met this beautiful girl at the front of the ship. She was out there alone. I walked by and I just kept feeling that I had to go talk to her. So I walked up to her and just kind of started a conversation with her. She was from Ohio. A junior in high school and she was 16. Everyday for the rest of the cruise we spent every minute together. We just clicked so perfectly after a few days we finally kissed. It was the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced. A few nights later we messed around a little bit... nothing to serious though. Well we had to leave we both felt terrible. I couldn't sleep that night. At 4 am I turned a bathroom light on and wrote a huge letter to her. Giving her all my contact information. I put it at her door in the morning. (I had to leave before her). After we got home we talked all day, everyday. We would skip hanging out with our friends just to talk. In August of 2007 we decided she was going to come out and visit me. She did. I have to tell you. I haven't felt like I was going to throw up this bad EVER. She finally got there and I was okay. Later that night we ended up having sex.. both losing our virginity to each other. She had to leave the next day. We both cried and I was in a slump all day. So things were fine for a while. In November of 07 I planned on coming to see her and all she could say was it wasn't going to work out anymore. We basically stopped talking. I would try to talk but she just didn't seem to understand how much it hurt me. So its been over 6 months since we ended it. I cannot stop thinking about her or comparing her to any other girl I try to start something with. I just picture her no matter what the smallest things make me think of her. I've been in severe depression ever since. I just really would like to have someone talk to me about this. Thank you if you have read this far.

That's really sad. And NO it's not ridiculous. I think it's really sweet. You were obviously very hurt by her reaction. I don't know if she gave you a reason or not but from the way you phrased it, it looks like she didn't. Which would hurt even more. You have every right to feel this way. There was no real closure which can make things even harder to deal with. I have more to say but it's more personal so I will just message it to you. But if you ever want to just vent or complain about something then I'm always here to listen to you. I know that what you are going through can't be easy and I want to help you in whatever way you need! Just remember that!

Man I know exactly what your taalking about. I have the same problem except we still are dating and we live about 20 min. from each other. FRirst off id like to say I'm sorry. I know what it fells like to be heart broken it sucks. There are a couple of things you could probably do, 1) Try to forget, try to find some one that has all of, or some of the things your looking for. I alwase thouught no one could compare to mine bur you'd be amazed at how many people are actually out there. 2) Just keep trying to get through to her don't give up. "The only easy day was yesterday". For your depression I really don't know what to say I'm dealling with it to. All I can really do is sourround myself with my best friends and hope for the best. Sorry I can't be more help. Contact me if you want!

See a doctor for the deppression and maybe you need some extra help coping with your own feelings of loss. I know its not easy, and its hard to accept that the summer fling you had has ended, but that's what you must accept. Appreciate the beauty, and regret the end, but do move on. You can't stop your life, for what is slowly becoming a memory.

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Hello, I know many of you will read this and think its ridiculous for me to feel this way...but here goes. So in April of 2007 I went on a cruise, I was 17 years old. a few days into the cruise I met this beautiful girl at the front of the ship. She was out there alone. I walked by and I just kept feeling that I had to go talk to her. So I walked up to her and just kind of started a conversation with her. She was from Ohio. A junior in high school and she was 16. Everyday for the rest of the cruise we spent every minute together. We just clicked so perfectly after a few days we finally kissed. It was the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced. A few nights later we messed around a little bit...nothing to serious though. Well we had to leave we both felt terrible. I couldn't sleep that night. at 4 am I turned a bathroom light on and wrote a huge letter to her. giving her all my contact information. I put it at her door in the morning. (I had to leave before her). After we got home we talked all day, everyday. we would skip hanging out with our friends just to talk. In August of 2007 we decided she was going to come out and visit me. She did. I have to tell you. I haven't felt like I was going to throw up this bad EVER. She finally got there and I was okay. Later that night we ended up having sex..both losing our virginity to each other. She had to leave the next day. We both cried and I was in a slump all day. So things were fine for a while. In November of 07 I planned on coming to see her and all she could say was it wasn't going to work out anymore. We basically stopped talking. I would try to talk but she just didn't seem to understand how much it hurt me. so its been over 6 months since we ended it. I cannot stop thinking about her or comparing her to any other girl I try to start something with. I just picture her no matter what the smallest things make me think of her. I've been in severe depression ever since. I just really would like to have someone talk to me about this. Thank you if you have read this far.

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She's a young girl and she probably met someone else. It sucks but, long distance doesn't work for most people. Tore my marriage apart. It's sweet that you care this much for her but, you're causing yourself the damage not her. She was honest with you and told you it wouldn't work. It's not what you want to hear but, causes youless heart ache in the long run.

Thanks guys your words really mean a lot to me. I always feel so alone and like I have no one to talk to about it. How do I check my messages? I'm new here so I don't know.

Go to "My profile" at the top of the page and on the left side click on list messages and wahla!