:confused: I've read so many "self help" books. I would like to change. I keep doing the same things. I like to indulge in . Seems like every time I do. I become a moron. When I work on a guitar piece or produce one of my songs I feel better, happy confident. There are other things that I'm neglecting though.. : I feel I should be booking myself more so. I could make a lot more $ that way. Plus, I can see that it makes people happy. It makes me happy when I perform. See, I have all the answers, but I don't execute them. I would like to get outdoors more. The place I live is beautiful. I spend most of my off time at my house working on music or absolutely nothing at all. I have so much potential to be great yet I won't move in that direction. I feel that not only am I cheating myself but also, I'm cheating everybody else by not being everything I can be.
Maybe I should just accept the fact that I am the way I am and simply enjoy life. However it turns out. Simply be happy. I feel guilty a lot of the time. Well, sometimes I feel good. I'm just depressed at this moment. As I said, I'm happier at the times I've specified. I don't want to talk to anybody. I would rather wallow. I know I shouldn't but, this is what I seem to do most of my days

Apparently, you don't have to earn a living and have plenty of money.

So, just my opinion, I think that you need to have a reason to get out of bed every day; a reason that excites you and connects you to humanity. Some kind of altruistic cause that you can blend with your musical talent.

I wish I have a specific suggestion... :)