I am a 45 year old white male. I love women and I am very atracted to them.But here is my problem.I love the male penis I do not find men attractive.BUT ihave always wanted to perform oral sex on a guy I love wearing women's panties I want a guy to do me analy and I want to suck him off. When I mastuerbate I have thoughts of sucking cock or having a cock in my .I have let my wife use a strap on on me when I put it on her I go down on it and suck it before she puts it in my . I love having sex with women and everything about them. But I am dying to suck cock and take it in the . I have read where they say women can be bisexual but men if you like cock you are gay but I will tell you I love both sexes .I am attracted to every thing about a women and its where I want to spend my life .Dying to do a guy oraly and have him do my and will dress up in women's panties wear make up and be his . This has been driving me crazy my whole life I squat when I pee and shave my please help me tell me what you think and what I should do. If you ever meet me you would never guess. Thanks and I look forward to hearing from you*******