So I often ponder that... the point of it all... I have no friends, no job, I stay with family and clean the place up a bit and can't even manage to do that... I was addicted to heroin for the better part of the last decade. Then I went to prison... while there I had a "breakdown" and was sent to state hospital.. upon my release... no help from anyone... my family doesn't think I am crazy... but I don't tell them any of my real thoughts... I have the ability to make them believe everything I say... anyway seeing as I am 27 and I haven't held a "real" job for more than a month... cause they always try to control my thoughts... I need to be able to take care of my basic human needs... and no money really inhibits that... dont they give people "Crazy Checks" as a felon where do I get it!!

You sound like you are confused... how about going to Narcotics Anonymous so you can familiarize yourself with what it is like to have an internal framework for your life so you can function better?

Social security gives out two kinds of disability checks... ssdi and ssi. You might qualify for SSI if the doctors find you disabled.

Seems like you can do manual labor... how about hanging our at Home Depot and pickup day jobs doing unskilled labor to get some money?

A head's up, people aren't as dumb as you think they are. :)