Can't leave suicidal, bipolar, PTSD boyfriend
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 5 years now. When we first started dating, he was very honest with me about his mental health problems, and he was in therapy and on medication. After two years together, we moved to a new city. Since then, everything's gone downhill. He started getting really jealous of any time I spent with new friends. After a while, I stopped trying to make friends at all because it wasn't worth the grief at home. It escalated to the point that we were barely talking to each other.
We finally split up and I tried seeing someone new, but he spent the next 6 weeks threatening to kill himself, hurting himself in front of me, showing up in the middle of the night in hysterics, and threatening to hurt the guy I was seeing (he was convinced I started seeing him before we broke up). I finally gave up and decided to try it again. It got better for a little while, but then he quit therapy, quit his meds (he's an artist and claims he can't be creative while on psych drugs), and now he even gets jealous over my professor/mentor at school (I don't bother trying to make real friends). Every time I try to end it, he tells me how his life might as well be over, and he won't make it without me.
I'm completely miserable. But if we break up, we'll have to live together for a least a few weeks before one of us can move out. I know he'll spend every moment trying to change my mind, with begging and threats, and I don't know if I'm strong enough to not give in. And I'm terrified that he'll try to kill himself again. My family loves him, so they're not supportive. I don't have any friends in the city I can stay with. I'm trapped.