Haunted by "Unlucky-ness"
I've been battling with this issue for my life. I always strive to get what I want in life and try to achieve the best I can. As a result, I am outstanding in numerous areas of my life.
However, as I get recognition, bad things come in chains and I could not avoid being unlucky. If the weather forecasted that there will be no rain for a month, I will still bring an umbrella everyday, just in case. Until one faithful when I finally got tired and intend to believe the weather forecast... I left my umbrella at home and the sky poured like cats and dogs. After that day, it was back to ole' sunny day.
When I am in the family car and we are out for dinner, there is always no empty parking lots. But if I get out of the car and walk to the venue, my family will find a parking space in no time.
In my school days, syllabus and textbooks changes right in the semester I was in, despite records of fairly stable syllabus in the past. Every time I have exams, the person next to me will always be either sneezing away with flu or snoring away. It disturbed my concentration. Why did that person sit next to me and not far from me so that I will not be disadvantaged? Lecturers have been kind to me and admire my enthusiasm in studies, however... somehow... my results are not as good as those whom I helped in class and who never studies, because I am never as lucky as most of them who guessed the right questions or guessed the right answers (when there are choices given).
In church, I am a well-trained organist but often faced criticisms about my dressing although I am conservative in choosing attire. Many members have been wearing more revealing clothes and do not get reprimanded.
Recently, my colleagues and I were given a project to work on and we will be evaluated accordingly. Needless to say, my boss was very happy with my progress, but the final result was far worse than any of us has expected. What's worst, my close colleague whom I guide through out the project got the best evaluation despite doing it the very last minute.
What is going on in my life that is making me soooo unlucky? Why do good things happen to me only to be taken away suddenly and unexpectedly? Should I continue to strive for the things I want and plan my life? Or should I leave it to fate, which is always bad in my case?
Does anyone face the same situation I am in?