hello, I hope u got a lot of spare time cos I haven't been on here in over a month lol so here it goes...

well, the 1st thing was I cut myself cos I felt soz for the girl I was seeing cos I went out with her best firend, then she only went out with me to have sex with me, we didn't do that (thank god! Lol)

I used to be... um... very ''sexual'' like I would always talk about it, I would like a hug now and then from people and things like that, now I'm not bothered about anything like that or anything at all,

I'm always tired in school even though I get about 9 hours sleep,

I'm back seeing that girl that I felt sorry for... =]

I have started to have a 'drink' every now and then but I will never smoke, and some of my friends are trying to make me start!

my mum and dad both want me to get a job, but I don't want to...

I'm allways depressed, and falling out with my friends..

at this moment in time there is only some things that are keeping me alive... they are...

this, cos I can talk about it, the girl I'm seeing, her best mate and everyone that we hang about with, and that's about it...

if anyone can help with anything up there I would be very very happy =]
thanks for reading lol

Well, it sounds like you have some positive things going on for you as well as some unhealthy things going on that you need to address. Please keep talking here! There will be people who will respond! It would be best to take care of your issues one at a time, though. I'm one of those who is listening. I can also call in others who will be good at giving advice too. Hopefully, others will also respond to your post. Thanks!

Thanks for reading :)

Thank you for responding! :) How about we discuss school? What do you think? How is school going for you?

Scholl... uhm... is.. well you can't say it on here but rubish lol, I've started to ''exprese'' myself a little more because I'm in the highest class (4th year ) and the way I am, I where black nail polish lol, and everywhere I go I can hear people wispering to one and other '' oh my god! Look he has got nail polish on... friggen freak... '' it doesn't bother me, I am who I am and no-one can change me, but because of it I'm not getting classed as gay, and every now and then there will be a person who asked '' did you get any guys this weekend? '' and they would laugh at me, doesn't bother still, just that its nearly every single class, I take my MP3 in to 'drown' them out with my music, but as soon as I put it in.. Some teachers say take them out before I take them off you, and others don't bother because there cool :) lol


Well really that's about it in school. I don't know yet if I'm going to stay on another year though.. I can't take them stupid so 'n' so's calling me names just because I'm difference, they think there cool because they dress the same, that's how I put them, they are worce than me, and they are only laughing at me to take away the pain that there mom's molest them every night lol (I don't know if they do or not, just that's my view of them, they don't even deserve names they are that low... )

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hello, i hope u got alot of spare time cos i havent been on here in over a month lol so here it goes...

well, the 1st thing was i cut myself cos i felt soz for the girl i was seeing cos i went out with her best firend, then she only went out with me to have sex with me, we didnt do tht (thank god! lol)

i used to be... um... very ''sexual'' like i would alway talk about it, i would like a hug now and then from ppl and things like that, now im not bothered about anything like that or anything at all,

im always tired in school even tho i get about 9 hours sleep,

im back seeing that girl that i felt sorry for... =]

I have started to have a 'drink' every now and then but i will never smoke, and some of my friends are trying to make me start!

my mum and dad both want me to get a job, but i dont want to...

im allways depressed, and falling out with my friends..

at this moment in time there is only some things that are keeping me alive... they are...

this, cos i can talk about it, the girl im seeing, her best m8 and everyone that we hang about with, and thats about it....

if anyone can help with anything up there i would be very very happy =]
thanks for reading lol

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to me nothing is wrong with you its just that your being a little lazy. U got to be a little more energetic like u usewd to be and its really good to say what you are feeling 2 people even 2 random people it makes u feel better. It makes u feel more confident in yourself and don't hang around people that are trying to force u into things like smoking. They are just trying to hurt u. I was in that situation once. And don't cut yourself u think it releases stress but it makes u more stressed out n more hurt.its going to be a habbit n that may lead to death. So just be as energetic and more outspoken like u used to be.

Erm, I don't mean to sound horrible but I think your seeking a bit of attention. From what I read you seem to have a normal life for a teenager and there is plenty of people out there who have nothing that you have. I know a guy that gets upset about his life over the fact he has few friends and he feels no girl would ever go out with him. He sits in class and literally doesn't talk to anyone unless spoken to. Personally I think he's a nice guy but everyone else just say they don't like him and have no reason for it.
That's something to be upset about.. I mean, I'm sure you have friends and your girl friend you can always talk to but apart from me this guy has no one except a best friend he has that lives to far away.
Good luck with feel better about yourself but remember you're a lucky one.

Thank you for responding further, mackythehacker! And, as you can see, there have also been others who have responded to you. It would be helpful if you would also respond to the responses that they have given.

It would also be helpful that those responding would use correct English grammar and spelling so that everyone who might want to respond on this thread can understanding what is being posted here. This isn't a chat site. And, it's also viewed by people on an international level who might speak and write in a number of different languages.

I would like to know if you are involved or interested in anything concerning the arts of any kind, mackythehacker? Like music, visual arts or drama (theater) of any kind.

Thanks!

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It would also be helpful that those responding would use correct English grammar and spelling [...] can understanding what is being posted here.

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You do see the irony here right?

There's a big difference between a typo and intentional laziness in communication.

OK hello every

first thing, thank you all! =D

second, I'll reply to all of you in this thingy here (lol)

andy305mia: I am lazy kind of lol, I know that =p

IheartEdward: I don't really want attion from people, I hate it, lol I dress how I like in school, and I am like that guy, only talk to people when spoken too, but that's how I like it =] and explain how I am lucky, lol

Clough: I'll respond as long as you do the same =p lol and please just call me macky. I like mostly rock music and things like that, I'm the kind that is quite and most people are scared or me just because of my sexuality, I find it funny to be honest lol,

Social-Psycho: I'm quite stupid so I don't really know what irony is =p lol sorry =[

JBeaucaire: uhm... I don't know what to say.. um... My spelling is not the best but I'll try my hardest to use proper grammar and spelling lol


there you all go, your replys =]

Rol no cause the guy was talking about typing better and he made a mistake in his own post, in that case that was irony, was sort of replying to him and now I feel bad cause you thought I was trying to help so basically here's how I see it, you don't really have problems apart from drinking every now and then but you're not an alcoholic right? Getting a job ain't that bad really just get the one with the best hours and nothing to do it'll probably help with your depressions and all cause you'll have the money to buy the things that bring hapinnes (ex. Flowers fr your girlfriend or chocloate (great anti-deppresant xD ) and believe me you don't want to cut yourself anymore... I eman what's the point anyway? You take whatever pointy object slice a part of your skin, feel pain see blood but do you actually feel better? I mean you might it's just that I never tried it so I wouldn't really know how it feels exactly I know that when I cut myself when I fall or whatever it isn't so good. I think you're not "sexual" cause you've grown into a man and you don't need to be smutter with attention and care even though it isn't bad to be you just don't need it anymore and you might be tired cause you need blood by now finally since when is it bad to score when the girl's conscious of her decision?

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JBeaucaire: uhm... i don't know what to say.. um... My spelling is not the best but i'll try my hardest to use propper grammer and spelling lol

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Oops, you missed the thread. I was responding to Psycho who was picking on Clough.

Clough told you not to use so many shortcuts on the forum here, and made a typo (understanding instead of understand) and Psycho thought it was ironic that a note about not using good grammar had a big glaring typo in it.

I posted that yes, it's ironic, but I didn't think it was the same thing.

I used to hate it when a few of my friends tried to pressure me into smoking. They would like make fun of me because I didn't want to but whatever I didn't need to smoke to be cool they did. Or so they thought. Don't let them try to pressure you. And for the kids at school, don't worry too much about them. They have nothing exciting going on with them so they tease and make other kids lives hell just to pass the time... losers. Just keep blowing them off! Oh and do try to stop cutting yourself. You may think it makes you feel better but that's because you truly believe it does. It's a mental thing. Instead try listening to music, or taking a long warm shower. That's helps me. Keep your chin up!

Hi Mackeytheahacker,

I hope you are doing good. Though I am no expert, I do actually believe teens tend to go through depressed periods, and due to that, they "hate life" and their parents, and many other people around them. I hope that this is more or less what you are experiencing rather than something much more serious, and if that is the case, please seek the counsel of a close friend, family member or outside counseling. The teenage years can really stink, and it seems like those years will never end. But remember, there is always hope, and you have to believe in yourself. Never give up! Life really does have a lot to offer. School is a fact of life, and you are better off making the best of it because it does pay off in the end. I have a teenager who, truly, can break my heart! I want so much to be a "small" part of his life, but he shrugs me off, barely talks to me or looks at me, and though I try not to push it, I of course am always going to attempt a conversation, tell him I love him, etc. like I always have. However, since the day he turned 13, he stopped hugging his us, his parents, has not told us he loved us since, and for no real reasons we can think of. Just trying to push away from us. I guess it is a natural stage, for some, maybe many, but it's hurtful, too, since us parents know how quick time really does end up going by, and these years will be lost to us forever. I guess I did similar stuff to my parents, but the difference was, my parents never were touchy feely, lovey-dovey, so I thought I was going to demonstrate that to my child the moment he was born, which I did, so I never expected to be shunned by my child. I can't help but think it is the teenage years. How is your relationship with your parents?
I think you demonstrate some very strong character traits: you don't need a girlfriend to make you whole and enjoy life; it is great that you choose not to smoke and I hope you continue to resist temptations that just aren't healthy and could lead you into a destructive lifestyle. You like to wear black and black nail polish, and that okay, because it's what's on the inside that counts, anyway. But do you really know why you do it? Is it truly because it's a look you want to portray? If so, then don't let other people's comments bother you. Sometimes when something is first put out there, it is a little startling. But most people get use to it, and if they don't, it's really more their problem and insecurities about themselves, anyway. As a teenager, I thought I wanted to be a young executive who wore business suits/skirts, high heels, and who drove to work in New York City on a Harley Davidson! Didn't happen that way but that's okay! :) Didn't have the courage, but you obviously do. I hope you share what some of your interests are. Thanks for also letting me vent!

Hello, sasssykatz, soz it took me forever to get back, lol, well, thanks for the post and help really... lol... and my relationship with my mom and dad is not really that good, lol, I hardly ever talk to them because ether my dad tells me to do something (wash the dishes ect) and if I can't be bothered, he moans at and gives me a BIG lecture on how he would have done it when he was my age, he thinks he was ''mr. Perfect when he was my age, but even though, he got kept back a year in school, he can be OK sometimes, not all the time... and my mom... well... the only time I speak to her is when I get up in the morning and when I come home from school.. lol

Hi Macky. You know, it makes me sad to hear that, because it's probably your true version of the situation. It makes me sad because I know as a parent, I am always worrying about my job, getting it done, making money, staying on top of household chores, being tired, or rundown, and making sure kids are doing their thing, and it really robs us of enjoying each other's company, doing certain things together that we would all enjoy. Instead, the "pressures" of everyday life interfere. But, if my son came to me and told me, hey, can we play a game of cards, or I don't mind doing "such and such" if you would speak to me a little differently, or if "we can agree on days or times I 'work' and have my 'own time,'" I would drop what I am doing, and listen, and try to realize his side and work it out. There is a rut we all get caught up in and it is important that we realize our families are the most important thing! Agreed, I may fall back into the rut, but if he reminded me here and there, and it would be my preference that he did, I would be ecstatic knowing I had a good relationship with my son. So, I hope you give your parents a chance. Try to let your father know in a nice way - maybe even jokingly - that you remembered the last "lecture" and that you understand without needing to hear it each time - that it kind of bothers you [and tell him how, if so]. Believe it not - your parents were once kids, too, and they are probably only trying to do their best. Most parents would want to hear how they can make a relationship with their child better than have a wedge between them. - and you're right, your father probably was not so perfect -neither is his memory! :) But his intentions sound good, and there are probably things he did as a kid that with his heart of hearts, he recalls he was a really good kid! And I don't doubt his parents were puzzled with him sometimes, too!

Get an identity and make sure it is a positive one. It sounds like you are trying to find out who you are. Well work on this as serious as you would Halo 3 and you will come out okay. Your problem is not uncommon in today's world and happens the hardest to young men who do not have good father figures in their lives. Trust me the things that you think are important right now are only temporary in your life. It hasn't even started yet.

I agree with rjsnyder get in touch with your inner self and identity and stand firm with who you are. It sounds to me like you could have a vitamin deficiency especially vitamin B complex. The more you sleep the lazier you get and the more you want to sleep. I use to sleep a lot then I realized it was because I wasn't eating good or healthy. I started eating better and taking vitamins and I feel healthier than I ever did. Vitamin B complex is good for energy, depression and brain function. Think about what you want in life, make a plan and follow it. Don't waste your time wandering around aimlessly and just going with the moment (although that can be good within its own place in your life).