From a man's point of view/ Is he using me or does he still love me
I've had a lot of things going on in my life, but the one thing that remains consistent is the "sleeping arrangements" that me and my x have. We always told each other that if we weren't with anyone else that we would sleep together. We have the best sex life, he knows my body and I know his, its always exciting and always great.
One thing that's really starting to bother me is the fact that he wants it "dirty" all the time. I am very comfortable with him and we have had sex any and every way possible. Sometimes I just feel like he wants me to be his personal porn star. Every time we have sex its like I have to talk dirty to him, and give him anal. If I don't he gets turned off and he can't finish. He always tells me that my body is his body, and his body is mine, and that no one else can have me, but the simplest thing pisses him off. Keep in mind that we aren't together... He likes long hair and I had long hair up until 2 months ago. When he called me for our "booty call" he got mad and said that he hated my hair, and he was totally turned off and not to come back until my hair grew back. He was dead serious after that day he didn't call me for like 3 or 4 weks.
I have tried to move on sexually from him but no one can satisfy me like he does and he tells me the same thing. This is why we keep coming back to each other. While I want his body I don't want him to just see me as a " peice of " sometimes I want to make love and be gentle and romantic but he's not so much into that. We do have history, we were together for 4 years, and we have a 2 year old daughter together, so in that sense I know I'm not just any other girl, but I just want to know from a man's point of view does he see me as special or different or am I just there for his own personal needs?