I realized what she meant to me now I think its to late
So I was with this girl for 2 years... The first 3 months we started dating she cheated on me with one of my friends, I din't care cause I had no feelings for her then.. But she did for me.. She spent the next year and a half trying to prove to me that she wanted me in her life. Bought me things for no reason, did absoutly everything for me and I didn't care. Something about when someone cheats on me I wouldn't let it go... I treated her like crap for that entire time she still kept hanging on to me, still kept trying to prove herself to me... Tried to get me to open up an let her in.. I never led her on, I always told her straight up how I felt and I didn't think we would go anywhere and that I couldn't see us being together... Still she kept holding on to me and putting up with my crap...
It wasn't all bad sometimes I took her out we had a lot of fun together.. We became eachother's best friends.. But I still couldn't see anything there with us.. I spent a year trying to get rid of her, an I finally did about 2 months ago... 2 weeks later I was feeling just fine like I never did before.. It felt good not having someone cling to me an call all the time and me always having to watch my back if I talked to other girls.. Then on night I seen her at a bar... She looked great like always but that night I finally noticed it.. Then I noticed she wasn't paying any attention to me.. She acted like she was over it... Later that night I called her an went to talk to her, told her I had to tell her something.. I realized that night that she finally grew on me.. I do care for her.. I do love her.. I told her I realized I want now what she's always wanted with me.. I apologized for the way I treated her, she didn't deserve it... I confessed to all my friends that didn't like her how I felt.. And to her friends as well.. They all could not believe that I finally came around..
I've never bought this girl anything before.. never got her flowers... Nothing.. The next day I had a dozen roses delievered to her at work.. Her friend told me she broke down crying... She couldn't understand why I chose now to come out with this.. She started seeing someone else a week before and she thought I was over her an she was trying to move on.. She's really confused... She won't tell me she wants to be with me but she won't tell me that we're done either.. I know she still has deep emotions for me an I've tried everything to get her back so I can make her feel how she's always wanted.. I know that this girl is the one.. I've never met anyone that could take all I put her through an still stick by my side.. I just don't know what to do at this point and I'm reaching out to anything that can help..
I know she needs some time to think... It's been 3 weeks now since I told her that and she still can't say what she wants one way or another.. I've tried giving her space an not talking to her but she just keeps calling me an texting.. So what does she want?
I know it may seem like I think I had something easy an someone who was obsessed with me an I just want that back to feel better about myself.. But I assure you that is not the case.. I really do care for this girl, I really do love this girl... I know in my heart she's the one for me.. I'm just so disgusted with myself it took me 2 years to realize this... Any advise anyone could give me I would appreciate it... Thanks