Ever since I was little I have very low self esteem..

Many things in my past have had an effect on this, such as family problems being picked on and made fun of being in an abusive relationship from 7th to 9th grade and so many other things.

I also have a problem trusting anyone and everyone who walks into my life. And it tends to ruine many many relationships..

I hate it I get defensive very jelous and I hate how that makes me..

So I just eventually shut myself down from being very out going nice funny person to the shy girl who comes off as a b*tch cause I don't talk to anyone if I run into afriend I wave or smile but never approach them and recently I've been trying to go up an talk to people I know to try and break out of this..

But I don't know what else I can do... I hate the lack of condifence and trust.. and I want tips/ steps/ advice/ anything on what I can do to fix it .

In order to be that fun outgoing person you need to decide if that's really what you want you can just want to be different you have to work towards it.


Approach a friend and hang with them for a day or two and see who they hang out with then try to approach the people they hang out with so you can meet more people and get a feel for how they act and then you can begin to mold a bond with the people around you.

Well, just go out more and socialise more, see it as practice.
And like Lo02 said 'you need to decide if that's really what you want', don't do this if you feel your not being yourself. There's nothing wrong with being the shy one, Im not always shy but I can be really shy so I can relate to you. But I don't care what people are thinking when I'm sitting alone and drawing or something.