It feels like everythings falling down on me.
It's like, when I get to the peak of my happiness, it all crashes down on me. I feel so depressed lately, I've been real messed up, I'm getting addicted to alcohol, advil, and cigarettes. It feels that there's so much going wrong now I don' know what to do anymore. The kids at school just tear me apart because I refuse to be part of their trend, I hate what they wear, what they listen to, how they act, how they talk, and I just hate them. I distance myself but they won't leave me alone and I refuse to give into their trend. My girlfriend and I have been dating for a year and 2 months now, and she gives me the " i thought i liked a guy today" almost every other day to the point its becoming the norm to me. It seems like I'm losing the friends I have every day to that stupid trend. My teacher drives me f****** crazy, he's what I hate the most, he and all the others stress me out to they point I can't take it. He ( and I'm sure many of you hear this but I'm telling the honest truth) picks on literally only me. I'm a straight a student, I'm friendly to those who aren't jerks, and I do my best to keep off his bad side, but if I lose one paper and I ask for a copy he loses it, gives me a lecture of how I need to improve, how I'm not going to make it, how I'm too worried about "being cool and dressing cool" to understand anything. I feel horrible and I really can't take much of this anymore, I don't know what to do, someone please help.