Originally Posted by issues
i'm 26, i've been with my wife for 6 years now (married 3 1/2 years) we have a 3 year old boy and a second child on the way, we've just bought a house and on the outside seem to have the perfect life together. i love my son to bits and love being a father, and as for my wife - she's an angel, i smile everytime i look at her and i can't bare to be away from either of them...
yet, since the day i met my wife i have cheated on her, at first it was just flirting and making out with other girls, and then after about a year it was sleeping with them, i've slept with probably close to 50 women in the past 5 years (and tried to sleep with many more - i've met them either in clubs or on the net),
Just recently i contracted chlamydia from one of these women and i passed it onto my wife, so i was forced to tell her (i could not bring myself to tell her the whole story so i lied again and said that it was an isolated incident and i would never do it again) she was very upset and wanted to leave at first but after talking things through she stayed. Things seem to have gone back to normal now and she seems to have forgiven me, but i know she has not forgotten and will be checking my phone bill when it comes in.
i know this behavour is wrong, but i just cannot help myself, just 2 nights ago i went to a club and met a girl who i have been talking to since then and will probably see her. i don't know what to do, i feel so guilty all the time and im so sick of lying to my wife - she deserves better, but i don't want to lose my family.....:( :( :(