I am madly in love with a man for four years. We live together and are basically a "married couple" relationship. I am only 22.
During the past two years I have found it more and more difficult to not be attracted to other men, only on a physical level. Like I said I love my boyfriend more than anything and want to spend the rest of my life with him, but am having a problem knowing if I should be doing more partying in my youth or settle down and be lucky I found such an amazing man to spen my life with. We have an awesome relationship, we are best friends, lovers, we communicate and are honest with each other and trusting.
Last night I went out with my girlfriends and got drunk and made out with someone else. An old friend from high school.
I now feel as if I have satisfied that urge "to know" if I am missing out on my youth and the party stage and all that. I feel horrible and never want to do that again. I feel as if it made me realize how lucky I really am to be with my boyfriend, more so even than before.
I need advice...
Should I keep it a secret?
Should I tell him - he would probably break up with me
Other advice?
Has anyone else ever felt the way I felt? Or were my feelings unnatural?
Thanks...