Why do I have no incentive when I'm so depressed
I'm from the uk,I'm 5 ft 7 and I weigh 11 st 3 (157lbs ish) I'm not obese, but I have extra fat on my stomach and hips! Basically I used to be about 9 st 7 lbs, but I've had downs lately and I've piled the weight back on. I feel so uncomfortable, as if I have a brick in my stomach, my face is as round as a balloon, but I still have no incentive to loose weight. I'm so down, I'm in tears now, I have the urge to go the gym but come to it and I get scared and won't go. I have a huge addiction to chocolate, and I'm permanently hungry, which overrides and over powers all my will to loose weight. I like fruit but it never appeals when there is chocolate there. I have a wedding in 3 weeks and I really want to loose weight, but even still that is no incentive!
I just need help to get me going, how I can get into it, after the first month I can usually stick to it, but it's that initial start I can't do this time!
I'm so down about it I'm worried, my mum offers to help where she can, but when I get upset she just can't understand why I don't just diet, she gets frustrated as to why I can get upset but do nothing about it, she doesn't understand how hard I'm finding it this time, because I'm so down!