Broke up but still in pain :(
Hi,
I was with my boyfriend for a year. We were very close friends for about 4 years before he told me he liked me. I had a crush on him for a long long time, ever since high school! Being with him with was basically a dream come true for me. Everything was great for about 10 months. He told me he loved me and gave me so much attention.
Then we began arguing about petty things. He told me that these arguments scared him. They were issues we could easily sit down and work out but he would choose to avoid doing that. I was the one calling him, he hardly called me anymore. I was falling for him harder and harder at this point. Eventually he decided to take a break from me because he needed space and wanted to think about what he wanted. After three weeks, he calls me and I told him how felt and how happy I was to be talking to him. He came over that day for couple hours. He acted very normal. After he left, I called him and he tells me that maybe we should go back to friendship and build from there. I was okay with that because I figured maybe that will help our relationship. The next day, I called him to chat, and he got frustrated and flat out told me that we can only be friends and there is no possibility in the future that we will get together. He seemed adamant about that decision. He reassured me that there was no girl involved, but it was because of our "differences" that he didn't see a future with me. I asked him to lets talk about it and work it out but he didn't want to do that. I told him I had changed and wanted to prove myself to him, but he wouldn't give me a chance. I was very very hurt because 1) I wasn't expecting him to be so straightforward and insensitive 2) he did it over the phone 3) he basically threw away 4 years of memories in a second without a proper explanation. He wasn't very nice to me when he told me and I feel as if I don't have proper closure. I was very mad and upset.
I have been depressed since then. He said he wanted to be friends and said he would call me. It has been over a week and he still hasn't called me. I'm trying so hard to get over him, but I keep missing him. I keep recalling all the memories we had together. I can't erase them out of my head. I know I can find someone that will love me and be more sensitive towards me but I still find myself missing him. My friends tell me that he didn't treated me right, but I feel like I messed up somewhere to bring that out in him. I read that you should give yourself time, but its just so hard. I'm just very hurt right now. Do you guys think there is a possibility for us later? How can I get him back? Should I move on, if so how! Its so painful and heartbreaking to go through this. Any advice would help. Thanks!