Originally Posted by cutie08
ive been feeling really down lately ive got my mom who always is ing at me about everything even the smallest things she is always telling me im going no where in life and im failing out of school and that she dont want me around anymore calls me a all the time and i dunno she is driving me crazy the way that she is always yelling at me and alwaysputting me down. Then there is my dad and he dont give two s he is never around he live 4 hours away and never bothers to call about anything and hardly will oay for child support he does not know me one bit he always buys me stuff that i would never have any intrest in or something for ppl up to 3 years younger than i am he dont even spell my name right. All my life i have just wanted a real family but by the looks of it i will never get one. then there is my friend who i thought was a good friend untill she ed my boyfriend and tried to get me and a few others suspended froms school cause she was scared of our reactions. then there is this guy that means the world to me but he dont even know i exist anymore and there was a time that everything was good with us then his ex came back around and i was not a rebound because i was and ex from 3 years earlier and he had already dated other ppl after that before me. Then there is school no matter what it is to much for me to handle. And last the way i view myself i always think of myself as fat and ugly and all i hate everything about myself i have even tried starving myself but i couldnt do it i dunno i just wish my mom and i were close so that i could talk to her about the way that i feel but i know i could never even try. Ive gotten to the point where im so depressed i have even thought about suiside and it scares the out of me WILL SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!