Is it to late to save my marriage?
OK, I want to start by saying that I love my wife. However; I am no happy. We have been married for 4 years and I have only been marginaly happy at times. We met, she left her country to be with me and we got married. When I was going through with the wedding, I had doubts, but attributed it to last minute jitters. Our wedding night, I wasn't very interested in having sex. I have only seen her in a sexual capacity for the first few weeks that we met, its bee 4 years and our sexlife has been almost nothing because of me. I Love her with all my heart and could not ask for a better more loyal wife, but I have started to look elsewhere at this point. I have not acted on it, but I know I may. I don't want to hurt her, but I am not sure that I was ready for marriage like I thought I was. I don't want to lose her, but I know how she feels now. I think she has been dying day by day since she has been with me. Last night, when she brought me a valentines card, I lost it and broke down and told her how sorry I was for huritng her and that I have been trying to repair the failed part of the relationships for the entire time we have been married. I know she would have left me by now if it weren't for the fact that she is out of her country and here with me. I know she loves me, but I know we are not happy. I don't want to end it, but I am ready to either fix it or move on... I hurt her so bad last night by telling her almost everything I have said here. I have not told her that I have considered looking around though. I don't think she needs that. Is this repairable? Is there a chance? I just don tknow what to do... I don't want to lose her, I am selfish I guess... But I love her and want to take care of her, I just want her happy at this point.. . anybody? Input please.