OK, there is no other way to write this.

It is such a stupid thing to do,and I am very embarrassed on telling this,I have never told anyone before.

Here it goes...
I like people to think I have a baby. For instance in my car I have the baby sunblinds, I even have a 'baby on board' sign for the window. In a press in our spare room, I have hidden away some baby stuff,like feeding bottles and baby cups,all in the hope that some day I will get to use them.

My Fiancé doesn't know about this. He knows I am desperate for a baby all right. But doesn't know about the above.

I have been this way for maybe more than 3 years.
I just want to know if anyone can help me. I don't feel that it is normal.
And I don't know why I'm doing this.

So anyone got some advice/help for me?

Well, I don't think that it's a stupid thing to do. I would think that most people have hopes and dreams of the things that could be for them and do things in preparation for the same. However, if doing these things is some kind of obsession for you that causes you to not get things done that you really need to do and causes some sort of problem because people that don't know you are lead to believe that you actually do have a baby and in them thinking that, it causes some kind of problem in your relationship of some kind with them, then if I were you, I would question doing those things.

Hopefully, others will be along to address your situation about which you have inquired.

carriefox,

You want a baby and I take it you have been trying for some time. Have you and your guy been checked out? Are you able to have children? I have come across this so often and in most cases what happens is either you decide to adopt or you eventually give up the longing and, as strange as it may sounds, that’s when you become pregnant. I know people this has happened to, my own sister is one of them. I think your mind has just got a little ahead of your body. I suggest you get rid of all the baby stuff, all of it. Trick your mind into thinking you don’t care anymore and give your body time to catch up. One more thing, and any therapist would tell you this, concentrate on your sex life. Have fun, play games, have sex outdoors, pretend you are with a stranger, fantasies. Allow it to take your mind off getting pregnant. If you can do that you will have more chance of getting pregnant. It always seems to be the minute you give up that it happens. If you can’t give up the idea then pretend you have. Start by taking back control of your life. Get rid of all the baby stuff now.

Well I have no problem I am aware of. And I was on a contraception called implanon until November 2007. I only had that in for about 8 months. It was injected into my arm,its like a tube. I will get rid of all the baby stuff,yea. It is going to be incredibaly hard,very hard.

I read your other question first, hence that answer.

I think you want to have a baby for all the wrong reasons. A baby will only compound your problems.

I think talking to a counselor might help you deal with this. I looked at some of your other posts; I see you have been trying for a baby. It can take time to conceive, please hang in there. I know it's hard when you want a child so bad. That is why I think talking to a counselor can really help you feel better about this.

I think the best thing to do would be to get rid of all those baby items. Do you know a mother who is struggling financially who could use the items? Or you could donate them to a shelter or something like that. That way it won't be as hard to get rid of them because you will be giving them to someone who needs help.

carriefox,

You have only been trying for a few month. You need to be trying for a year or more before a doctor will check you both out to make sure you can have children. Give away or pack away all the baby stuff. And concentrate on getting on with your life. It will happen, but you need to take back control of your life and make sure you want a baby for all the right reasons. Talk to your partner about this, give him the chance to help you get back on track. Just talking about this will be amazingly helpful.