Falling for a friend (girl). Again.
Here is the story... I have this friend that I've known since High-school. I always had a crush on her and she knew that back then, but she didn't want to really date me... she just wanted to stay friends. However, every time we started drifting apart a little, she should like do something so I would like her again... we even kissed once back then.
Oh by the way, I'm 25 she's 22.
I got into a relationship and we drifted apart for 7 years. I haven't seen her or heard from her or anything. That relationship ended and after couple of months I got into another one with a different girl. While with this girl, I saw my friend again and we started talking and all... She was surprised the way I changed and the way I look and all that. My GF at the time was jealous and all and didn't like her much, so we really didn't see each other a whole lot.
Well, my girlfriend left me for another a month or so ago. Since she left, I've been talking to my friend more. She would ask me to go out with her and her friends, and then sometimes she would come over to my place and we would just watch movies, go to dinner etc. She Texts me every once in a while, just asking what's up etc.
Now, I always liked her... There were always feelings there for her. When I'm with her, I feel great really. I mean we're watching movies on the couch, talking about stuff etc. IT's perfet.
She's single obviously... Didn't have a boyfriend for 2 years and is looking I guess. She tells me all the things she likes in a guy and pretty much brings it down to me now. Not 7 years ago but now. I tell her all the things I like in a girl and she's saying that she's like that now. I told her I don't like club sceens and bars much and she's into that, but she says that if she had a boyfriend she would tone that done. It's the only reason she's going there etc.
Now, I'm totally blind as far as these signs if she likes me or not. I mean I know I like her, but I have no idea if she likes me as a friend or maybe she would want to try more... I mean I have no idea.
I would very much like to ask her out and go on a date with her and see where that goes, but (I'm sure you all know what I'm about to say now) I'm afraid that if she says no, it will ruin our friendship as well etc. Plus I might get the whole speech that I got 7 years ago about how she doesn't want to loose the friendship we have blah blah blah.
So what do you guys think? She said she'll come over this Friday night to my place so we can watch some movies. I don't know if she'll come or not because there are times she said she will but then it doesn't so... Anyway.
Thanks.