Turning point.when is it love?
When do you know you're in love? Honestly.. if you have never been in love before, how do you know when it's real? Is it when you realise that you never felt this way about anyone before? Is it when you are willing to lose your virginity to them? Or is it when you are willing to stick through everything, even that person ignoring you, just so they can be happy anf hope they will come around?And then spending hours trying to get them to stay, and days crying over them, what does it mean? Is it worth anything at alll?
I felt all those things for my ex, and I still feel some of them. I know I'm only barely 20, and that at my age who is to say what love really is? But dammit it hurts like hell when you tell them and they don't believe you, and they say your being silly, that it's impossible to love after 2 and a half months. Is it impossible to love someone.. trully love them after a short time?
Does wanting to feel your boyfriend next to you, meaning him actually seeing you there, talking to you when in a group, holding you close, make you an attention begger? Does caring for thers more than you do about yourself really such a bad thing?
Does being so scared of ruining things, so you do things a little tense, make you fake and mechanical?
Does it make you a child, and immature and silly if you want to make people smile, if you want to be silly sometimes?
When can you honestly say you are mature, and when can one start calling herself a woman and not a girl.. is it so abnormal not to get pissed off and nasty when your guy says that girl is hot or not, when in the end as an artist you can apreciate beauty? Is it normal for a guy to ask you to be more selfish? Is it normal to tell someone you just broke up with that you don't know how to atract a guy, that he wanted the hunt, that you don't make him swoon after you?
I can honestly ask myself.. if it's even worth it? Being nice, giving it all to someone and something that just isn't there.