Am I Reading Too Deep Into This?
I'll try to make a long story short...
I was divorced approx. 15 months. Ago from a man whom I was married to for nearly twelve years. We have two children together.
The marriage ended for several reasons. See 1/16/08 post: "Confused About Ex-Husband".
I just ended my relationship with my boyfriend of nearly 10 months. He had nothing to do with divorce. I met up with him about 5 months. After my divorce was finalized.
The relationship did not ultimately work between my boyfriend and I, because I did not make that "connection" with him. That's the most basic way I can describe it. Also, I'm sure I am not completely over my ex-husband either.
Since I just recently split up with my boyfriend, my ex-husband has been calling me a bit more than usual, staying on the phone longer than normal, and he has been emailing me jokes, which he has not emailed me anything since our divorce. He has a girlfriend that he's been seeing for probably around 10 months. As well, but recently he made the statement that he doesn't really care for her, he's a bad boyfriend, etc. He has told me in the past that he is still in love with me, but it's over and he has no intentions of a reconciliation.
My ex-husband has not been speaking to me about anything on a personal level. He's been calling nearly on a daily basis, but just to touch base about our kids.
Am I reading into this too deeply? Am I being unrealistic or delusional?
I don't know why I am still having so much trouble letting go of this.
Is it possible that he feels the same way I do? Or am I just allowing this man to string me along or am I just stringing myself along?