How can you love two men?
I have been married for five years. We have a good marriage, I am basically happy and really have no complaints. When we were dating I was also seeing a guy I worked with. This continued for about a year. When my husband proposed marriage, I spilled my guts and broke it off, telling him I needed to decide what I want. I knew I was in love with the other guy and thought once I was single he might want to take things beyond casual, but I was wrong. After several weeks I decided to accept my husbands proposal and we married three months later. I knew in my heart I didn't love him the way I loved the other, but I was happy with him and believed things would fall in place. Now it is almost six years later and I have never been able to get over the other guy. We did not speak for several years but I would break down and cry frequently, and every time I ran into him I felt like having a nervous breakdown. Now we are friends and he even hangs out with my husband. I'm not planning to leave my husband or have an affair, I just don't know how to deal. Why does it still hurt so bad after so long, will it ever get better, and can I ever have a successful marriage while I'm in love with someone else? I don't want to feel this way forever.