I am done and its time to move on
Well I have posted my story on here with updates from time to time, she left me after 2 years to go back to her old boyfriend she was with 4 years ago who did not treat her very well, they lived together for 2 years, and 4 years before that they were together so this is her 3rd time back to him.
While our time together was good and I treated her great she never got over him, she is now living with him and planing to marry in March, my last post was about me seeing them together at church and I went up to them and introduced myself to him and told him I was a coworker of hers and she had told me how happy she was because she was back with her old boyfriend and that she told me how wounderful he was (I made this up) she looked like a deer in the headlights when I did this, I just said what I did and walked away, I guess I did it to score points, I have not heard from her. Maybe I upset her.
She called my mom last week to say hello and said she would be mailing her a late Christmas gift, then called my buddy to catch up (they were good friends) she said she just got her phone back (her guy lost his 2 months ago and he had hers and only now she gets it back)
While most of my friends don't think things will work out with this guy and someday she will be looking for me I cannot hang on to that anymore, she would have so much to prove to me. How do I know she would not leave again.
I love her very much and I know she wanted to be friends, I have not been contacting her at all, she would sometimes email me. But I have not heard from her now for awhile.
My friend told her I love her very much, no sure they should have done that
Anyhow I have decided that I must leave this alone and move on, if she contacts me (and I am thinking she will) I am going to ignore her, unless she says she is alone and wants to try again, other than that I will never speak to her again. She loves my mom very much and is good friends with my best friend. So I am sure I will hear about her.
She has given me so much over the last few years, I am sad to loose my best friend, but I cannot just be a friend to her, I thought of emailing her to tell her that, but have decided just to leave it alone.
Letting go is so hard, I have to think she will be gone for good. And maybe I will meet someone better.
Thanks everyone who have read my posts
Allen