Love two men one of them is my ex
I have read a lot of love and loss on here and some of you are pretty dam mean.
Unless you been there you don't know so shut the hell up. I know I once was one of
Those people that used to say an ex is an ex for a reason. Move on. Well what if you do
And then years later things change children or no children. People should be happy RIGHT?
MY STORY
We met when we were very young I was just a girl and he a boy.
I was very good friends with this guy for 14 years during which we dated on and off and on again for years. I loved him deeply in every way and wanted to marry him.
However it all ended sadly badly and very dramatic. He had decided to start up something
New with some other girl while still with me. I did not know this for many months.
He was living with her and said they were engaged. Looking back I saw the signs.
Long story short . He would not talk to me face to face so I ended it relationship,friendship
And everything over the phone. It was a very difficult time for me we had always knowen
Each other and had growen up together. Many things were going on in each of our lives. New jobs, Parents, family death, him wanting to move out of state. A year after it ended I started dating my now boyfriend. I had moved on with my life.
A few months after that my ex started calling me up and hanging
Up every time I answered the phone. I know this because I had caller ID. He did this more
Than ten times during that year. I hating knowing that he was still living with her. Her name and number flashing on my phone id. I knew who she was.
The end of the year I decided to call him and ask him why he was calling me.
At first I was friendly. I wanting to communicate with him face to face
But then decided I was not going to risk the relationship I have with my boyfriend.
That was seven years ago. I had moved on with my life
And had found joy and happiness again. Or so I thought.
Sense then I know my ex got married a year after we last talked on the phone.
He also had children with her.
I won't lie I was very sad when I had found out the news. But I still went on..
Until a year ago I started thinking about him again. Now I realize I still love him
And Im in love with him. I know without a doupt that he is still the one. All these
Years I had just been surpressing all my feelings. What makes it worse is that
I'm engaged to my boyfriend now. HOW DO I DEAL WITH ALL THESE FEELINGS?
I still love my boyfriend but I love my ex too and want so very much to see him again.
I would never ever cheat nor am I ever going to contact my ex. I won't do that.
BUT MY FEELINGS OF LOVE REMAIN AND That's WHAT I DEAL WITH EVERY DAY.
Just so you people know it sucks loving two guys, living with it knowing you can't do
Anything about it, also you keep it a secret. No one knows this not even my best friends.
Most people who are still in love with there exs never contact them and suffer in silence every day still in love.
SO BE KIND TO US TENDER HEARTED WHEN THROWING UP YOUR SO CALLED GOOD ADVICE.