I am 34 and have never loved
I have a girlfriend and the mother of two children, who I think loves me but has never said it. Her actions show this love. I am 34 and I do not think I have ever been in love. I spent the first 15 years of my life being raised by a hard nosed marine, then the next 15 years in the cut throat world of the streets. I felt abandoned at the age of 15 when I was sent to live with my mom(even though I thought that is what I wanted). Mom my mom turned out to have problems with drugs, and could not offer the stability and firm hand of my father. So I turned to the streets to raise me. I had to practice being emotionally detached to not just survive, but also thrive. Now I have passed that stage of life but I am still afraid to love. Many have loved me but I could not return the same emotion< I do not want it to be my turn. I also feel like I am not ready for a monogamous relationship. I know if I do not changes because I am ready I will not be happy. Am I wrong for putting me first? Do you think not being monogamous can have a biological basis?Do I fit a profile and what should I do? I would prefer non religious answers and examples, but all constructive criticism will be accepted.