Hi,
I recently split with my ex. I know my part to play inits demise. Im sure I am healing slowly. I really have him in my head though. Im 32 he's 34. I found out 6mnths into the relationship that he had a girlfriend. Hes going to the caribean with her in Jan! This drove me mad when I found out, I am so angry with him, but we kept seeing each other. I know this was wrong, bu we both admitted that we were addicted to one another. Then I started randomly threatening to tell her and we started having arguments, I know this was to drive him away, cause I knew it was wrong. But then I insulted him and he got upset and more or less made up, bu not fully(drunk. Then he stopped contacting gme, fizzled out...
I swear since then I really miss him, its pshychological, I want what I can't have, but I am so upset I didn't get proper closure... that we only taled drunk, that he was upset, that I brough insults into it. I calle dhim a few weeks later(ago) and he was shocke dto hear from me and just hung up on me, this was the most hurtful thing he could've done... im confused, I just want closure, for us to chat and to say goodbye...
I'm contemplating calling to his house, to make ligt of it, I still want him to like me, I won't tell his girlfriend... I don't know should I wish him a happy xmas, and give him the impression I have moved on and forgive him, I want him to know I more or less forgive everything, and that I know my part in it too... sorry this is confusing if u have read it, what do u think I should do, I just wanted my closure and a proper goodbye... what do u think he is thinking now, would you say he misses me? I spoke toa guy the other night who said he split with his gal after a year and that yes he thinks of her all the time, I just can't believe he is happy with NO contact, with no proper godbye, I wonder does he still like me in any way! I wish I never threatened to tell the girlfiend, then we would be in touch now!