Originally Posted by Kia
I'm just writing, I guess at my last attempt to reach out. I am at my breaking point and I don't understand God's reason for giving me this type of pain. And, honestly I am getting very, very close to throwing in the towel...
I keep getting my heartbroken; I go out with new eligible guys and get rejected. I get compared to my prettier coworker & have hardly heard from a guy that I was beatiful my whole life Even when I was growing up I heard comments about how beautiful my mother is from other people; even my dates/boyfriends; got teased for not being pretty; the whole nine..
I can't take it anymore. I tried to get a nose job, but nothing big has changed. I just get more guys that I don't want to date appraoch me. But guys I like? Still bearly no change.
My friends are dating guys & I'm alone & I can't get past one date with guys who I am attracted to. I wake up everyday feeling ugly, and I can't deal.
I played with the idea of buying some antifreeze the other day & I'm really seriously considering it because I feel like sh$%.
Everyday I just want to crawl up in a corner and I don't even want to talk to people anymore . I'm so embarrased. I'm too old for this.
It affects everything; my finances, my work. I'm just losing my drive to do anything because I don't see the light at the end of my tunnel anymore. I pray but nothing has changed.
If God loved me; why would he keep me in this situation? Is his plan for me to be constantly compared to other females and rejected for the rest of my life?Is there supposed to be some lesson in this?
If so; I quit; I just quit..