What do I do about this? I'm lost
Hi I'll try to make this short and sweet. I've known my girlfriend since we were both 4 we were each other's first kiss and first crush. 6 months ago we decided to actually date. At first things were 100% perfect, we moved in together but they're was a catch her best friend was to move in with us because she has no place to go, I agreed at first things were fine then they just went crazy. I had asked my girlfriend to marry me and she said yes. For the next 2 months all hell broke lose between me and her best friend. She's always known I had a bad past but she decided to use it against me saying she feared for her life and if I was ever in the house by myself she was going to call the police on me. At this point I told my fiancé either I moved or we kicked her out and oddly enough she said it would be best if I moved cause we could still be together and she could save her friendship with her best friend. Since I've moved out her bestfriend's been brainwashing her completely. Telling her she's better off without me she could do better and I'm almost 100% sure she's trying to get her to cheat on me or interdouce her to someone else so she would leave me. Ever since I moved out they've been spending a lot of time together leaving me with no time at all. 3 weeks ago she broke off the engagement cause I told her as her fiancé I din't feel important enough cause I was getting no time with her and she wouldn't life a finger for me if my life depended on it, I was going though a rough patch and she told me to deal with it myself she din't need my problemes on top of hers but, were suppost to be a team and every probleme she has I help out with take half the load off her back. When I told her best friend we were engaged she freaked out and told my girlfriend it wasen't right and shouldn't be doing this. My girlfriend being brain washed agreed and said she din't want something so serious. Now I find her liying to me a lot, ignoring my calls, every time we have plans she finds excuses not to see me and she hangs out with her best friend which I personaly think is b/s, when we do see each other she won't physicly touch me it seems like she has a hard time even looking at me. She won't say I love you anymore unless I put up a fight for it and if I get a kiss it's like a treat I never get them. We haven't had sex in about a month I've tried quite a few times and it just is not happening. I gave her the option of leaving and asking her if she still loves me and wants to be with me and if she's still happy she says yes but does not show it at all and it hurts cause I don't feel loved or important enough for her time. The only time I see her is when she needs me to do something for her. I love her to death and feel like I can't go on without her but, what can I do to really see if she really does love me and wants to be with me? Also it's my birthday in a few days and christmas is in 3 weeks I've asked her if she was only staying with me cause of the holiday timming and would feel bad breaking up with me at this time of the year she said no she din't want to break up, but again I feel like she doesen't want to be with me, she can't look at me, touch me and even talk to me when we are together she BARELY talks to me. Anyway that's about 3/4 of the story someone help me out here PLEASE I'm losing my mind