This is a long situation, so please bare with me!
I was with my boyfriend for 6months when my mum kicked me out. I had no where to go, so I moved in with my boyfriend and his parents.
Its now been over 6 months since I have lived with them, and I have not got a decent enough job to move out on my own without the help of benefits.
Well, that explained, my problem is, I don't know what to do anymore. I think I want out of this relationship. I just haven't got the confidence. I know my boyfriend watches porn, and fancies the socks off victoria beckham, and it makes me feel so crappy. I'm no way that skinny that those girls are, and I never can be. So I'm making our lives a misery!! I just cry all the time!
Its as though he doesn't love me, I'm just there, and he puts up with me. He doesn't say he loves me.
If we have sex, its as though he's not thinking of me, it always seems to be after he's watched porn, or someone he likes on TV. I try to get him interested in me, but it doesn't seem to work!
Don't get me wrong, he is caring, and lovley, he took me in for god sake, but its as though he "puts up with me" for the sake of it, you know? Its as though he needs a girlfriend there, and I'm the one thatll do everything for him, so I'll do! Hell sit on his computer all day, when he's not working, and ignore me, the only time hell ever really talk to me is when he's horny.
I have talked to him about it, but it seems he listens to me, an things will change for a week, then go back to normal.
What can I do? I'm in this situation, an I need help, I want this relationship to work, I love him so much, but how can I love him if I feel he don't love me?? Am I being silly, an need to gain more confidence??
Please help!
