Falling deeper and deeper into this hole.
I am currently a high school senior right now, caught in this downward spiral. I did not use to be like this, though. I used to have straight a's, a perfect attendance record, and fully-accomplished goals. But now, I'm failing 3 subjects, being called in for truancy, and missing a lot of the goals I set for myself.
I keep telling myself to just give it a little more push; the schoolyear is almost over. But I seem to have no motivation, and something seems to have died in me. I'm so lazy and depressed, I sleep a lot, and furthermore, I keep getting in fights with my family. I just don't know what the hell happened to me. It's like some sort of.. internal combustion. And it's the wrong timing too--i'm supposed to make a good impression to colleges at this time, etc.
I am ashamed right now. Ashamed of telling my parents and friends and boyfriend about this huge problem--they've always seen me as responsible and so put-together. And I came here to let it all out. Any feedback would be welcome.. I just really don't what's wrong with me and what it will take to get myself out of this hole. :(