losing another best friend
Ok so I have a bestie call her x. X and I used to be really close friends that we treat each other like sisters.
Then one day I felt I wasn't very close to her because we had changed classes which I understand. But when I tried to talk to x she ditches me for a girl called r. She's got too much pride and arrogance that I hate and x started to change people for this crazy girl no one likes.
Meanwhile, I find another person (call her z) as I realise I have been ditched. I became close to her and she started openingup to me.
As x saw me with z, she immediately act as I was like her best friend again but I refused and z decided not to talk to her and I followed.
A year past and I found everything had changed. I made friends with another girl call her v. Z and x started talking which Ifelt happy and I started to feel more right with r.
But as the days past I felt like z is ditching me for x and whenever I talk to her she goes oh. Um hang with v today I'm hanging with x.
Especially when I give her advice she and x have been talking about she goes to me and says oh thanks but I like x's better.
Whenever I try to talk to her or hang out with her I scream really loud and I'm only 3 meters away she ignores me.
I try to ask her but she gets all annoyed and walks away.
I really like her but I feel like x is stealing z away or maybe z lost interest.
But I am confused because when x'd away she backchats about z for a little while.
Do you think I am jealous.and I have no idea what I should do.
(Sorry about the paragaphs I typed this on a cellphone)