I just got out of the hospital again

I tried to kill myself again for the 4th time but this time I realized something

What the hell was I doing I couldn't believe what I had done I have so much to live for I'm finnaly getting good grades in school I have friends that would do anything for me with no questions asked and I realized that I had to get over every thing that was done to me as a child and move on with my life and stop dwelling on the past
I went to church for the first time in 3 years and I was so scared that god wopuld no texcept me then I rememberd that god will always love me no matter what I do all I have to do is simply talk to him and ask him for forgivness and he will be there to pick me back up off the floor when ever I fall

Some times God will allow us to hit rock bottom to get us to turn our attention back to him.
Be thankful that you have another chance and remember God has a future for you to look forward to even though it may not seem like it at times.

Thanks I so agree

Wow I never looked at it that way.

WOW! You are a fortunate one. Sometimes, the forst attempt can really kill you. I'm glad you realize that you have so much to live for. Remember, everything you go through makes you a better, stronger, wiser, and more mature person. You grow up and learn from your mistakes. Pain is only temporarily. I hope you make no other attempts because there are people out there that lives are worse than yours and make it. GOOD LUCK!!
LOVE,