I don't know what to do anymore
I dated this guy for about 9 months. In this time I wasn't the greatest, I was going through some things and it started to bleed onto the relationship. It wasn't all bad though , we were very very close . We both loved each other very much and both cried when it was over. We said we would be friends, but in time I told him that I can't pretend that I'm OK with hearing and seeing him out on dating sites and he said the same to me as well. Whenever we spoke , it was always about " us" and it just wasn't healthy anymore in trying to move on . So I finally said for him to not talk with me for a few weeks , he agreed. I sent him a message after a few days just saying hello and that I was fine and I'm sure that we will talk soon. He hasn't gotten back and its been a day and some and I know he has gotten the message. I got a little mad but I can understand that he's trying to move on and do what I asked of him. Still though its rough. I still think about him all the time and I am constantly going through the 5 steps. Anger, grief, denial , acceptance , however it goes.. over and over again. I can't get over this man , I always want to know how is doing , I always want to talk with him , the thought of him sends all these emotions and memories to me . I'm OK with moving on , I know we need time. But that doesn't mean he doesn't consume me , it seems. Does he feel the same way? When I think of him , is he thinking of me too ? Are we ever getting back what we had? Will I ever see him and be with him again? I honestly feel a great connection to him .
My birthday is October , 26, 1985 - and his is sept, 9, 1980 Virgo man and Scorpio woman.