I am so depressed. I had left my last post with you all. I hurt the one I love. He will not see me. I want to tell him I am so sorry to his face. We have been like best friends for over 1 year. We talked about everything in our life. I could call him with my troubles.. and now I don't have him. I am so hurt. I wake up at 2 and can't go back to sleep for hours.. in the last 4 nights.. I have gotten out in my car and drove to were he lives. I can't keep doing this. I think about doing things to myself.. I don't want to hurt myself. But I am so afraid if I don't get some help or for him to talk to me and just let me say to his face I am so sorry. Why do I feel this way? I hurt so bad.. I am a 45 year old woman. With a life a head of me. My kids are all gone and I am so alone now. I love him so much it hurts my heart. Can someone help me please.. :(
