Hey all, I just wanted to talk for a bit. I have been doing so well. I have had NC for a month now. Although it has only been 2 weeks since she tried to contact me last which I didn't reply. I have been dating and trying to keep busy so I can move forward. I am not doing so well again. Not sure why... I can't seem to get her off my mind AT ALL! I have been out with some other women and nobody makes my heart pound like she did. This is a real problem. I am still so shocked and hurt that she is not there anymore. What is wrong with me? I really hate her for how she played me and for how she dropped me so easy after so long. I keep trying to like other women and all it seems to do is make me sad cause I don't FEEL the same way. I guess I am just hurting and not really healing. I miss her sooooooo much and just know I will never have her back with me. It makes the future seem so mundane. I can't even enjoy the company of a beautiful woman for a date or more, I can't get my mind off my exgf. At least I am not crying all the time anymore, but I still feel soooooooo EMPTY inside. I feel like a significant part of my soul is gone and I can't seem to be happy. I mean I have been out with some attractive, fun, nice women, and I just can't see myself with them. Its not as if I am saying my ex is so much better, but I just have sooo much emotion for her even still. There may be something wrong with me?? What do you all think other than the same things we all keep saying?

Diamond
What you are going through is just normal , a month quite often is nowhwere near enough time to get over someone you love/d. You really just have to be patient and with time the pain will get less. It's not easy I know but it's the same for everyone. Hang in there and keep up the NC , you don't want to go back to square 1.

Hello Diamond, was beginning to worry, hadn't heard anything!!
I don't think I can say anything that is something different from what we have already said. But betrayal is always a hard hard thing to have to deal with. I'm afraid to say it will take a while before you can think of anything else without your thoughts being diverted to her (again). The best thing to do is to deflect from that feeling of deep sadness and try to do something else, be open (I know its hard) when you go out on dates with others, you might meet someone who you genuinely like and then one day this whole saga could end up being the best thing that ever happened to you. So set yourself short term goals, and then long term you will be a OK! And in answer to 'is there something wrong with me' NO you would be abnormal if you weren't feeling what you're feeling. I hope my words go some way to comforting you and that you see your life being normal once again, full of happiness and joy!!
Blessings
Kiki

A month is probably way too soon to think you will be OK on dates. Im at the 3 month breakup, 11 weeks NC, and I really doubt that I'm ready to meet someone else. I was dating a new girl for about a month, and getting more miserable all along the way. I finally realized that she triggered 10x more EX memories then without her. I thought I would try what my ex did (aka she left me for someone else and instantly picked up her life with him) but I guess its not in me (which is a good thing I guess).

Hey Madaman, I am doing OK with dating I guess. I know I let the memories creep up when I am with others, but that is normal I think. I just hope I am not being too awful to anyone. I miss my girlfriend so much and she is not my girlfriend anymore. I am such a sap that I even thought about psychic readings and stuff. How sad is all that? It has not been that long since NC but I really miss her. Of course here comes the holidays and it is going to make it even worse. I guess she is happy without me and I am all alone. I feel like she is a monster, and I do feel like I was just trash she could just toss without any problem. It just hurts I put in so much of my heart just to be played. I want to be doing better, just still can't seem to stop thinking about her. I have nightmares every night, I cry and talk to GOD, and beg for her to come back. It doesn't help. I am without confidence and respect. I have become kind of numb I think. At least I am following the rules, NC, no stalking, got rid of all the things she got me, changed my dress code, stay away from her area of town, don't check online for any info. I am really doing well with all that. It just hurts she coulc be so cruel. I am at a loss. I kind of figured I would at least hear something from her? But you all know what?? She has tried to contact my ex wife 3 times with email. Trying to get a rise out of her. Telling her she is the crazy one for interfeering in her life. What a crock of SH*T. She no longer has that fake person on email to find out info and now she is completely cut off. My exwife won't reply to her. I have not heard anything from her. She is the lowest of the low. She dumped me but still wants to BS about stuff she got caught at with my exwife and she is not even with me anymore. Is that all about? Oh and she is still denying she was this other person on email. I know it was her, I traced the IP address of the emails. What a two faced liar. I am such a moron for trusting someone like that.

Hi Diamond, just a quickie to check on how your doing?
Blessed I hope (",)
Kiki