Am I rebounding or just bonding with a really close friend?
Around 2 weeks ago my girlfriend of almost 2.5 years and I decided to break up. We're both young (both 18) and we just started college. It was a distance relationship, but barely... we're both in boston and around 1 hour apart. The issue was basically that she didn't want to feel tied down at age 18, and I guess I felt that as well, but not to the extent she did. I might have gotten there over time, but who knows.
The main point of this is that I've made a lot of progress in getting over the grieving process, however I just recently hung out with a friend of mine of 6 years or more. She was my first friend when I moved to my hometown and we've been really close all these years. We kind of have semi-but-not-really history together (we kind of went out sophomore year high school for a week or two) but it didn't damage the friendship, but only made us closer friends and we are comfortable saying basically anything to each other. My now ex had always been jealous (though she rarely expressed it) whenever I hung out with her, and I guess understandably, even though nothing ever happened (I never more than hugged her when we parted ways a couple times).
But this past weekend, we went to a concert together (the police) and we had dinner and stuff beforehand and then we came back to my school and hung out here and stuff and stayed the night. We ended up talking for I guess around a total of 6-7 hours from 5:30pm to 4:00am (we talked from around 12:30-4:00am almost no stop... just about anything and everything). Basically the only time we really didn't talk was during the actual performance. We seemed to see eye-to-eye on basically everything that came up in conversation and there wasn't a single dull moment the whole night (I was basically kept laughing, smiling, interested and talking the whole time), it was probably one of the most fun nights I've had in a long time. I didn't miss my old relationship at all that night (I actually turned my phone off because I was having so much fun I didn't want to deal with anything else that night)
Throughout the whole night, I all of a sudden felt this click between us that I never noticed before, partly I guess because we never spent quality time like this together. Nothing physical happened that night between us (just as a tid-bit of information) because I knew even if we both wanted it, it wouldn't have been right. I guess I started to feel attracted to her again like I did around 3 years ago, and the whole time I tried to think whether these feelings were because of HER or because I felt like I wanted another relationship back. I felt 50-50 on the issue but I'm not sure if these are just the feelings of a rebound or not. I guess I feel this way because of the connection I felt... that I never really met someone who I had so much in common with and there are very few people who I get along with so well. I understand I need to just see how things go from here and I'm not drawing any conclusions about her feelings but it scares me that I think I see myself falling for someone already, such a short time out of a very difficult break up and such a long relationship. I haven't told her any of this, but I don't know if I'm reading too much into this and also if part of the reason I'm reading too much into is because I might be starting to rebound.
