I hate myself so much I am ugly I'm trying to lose weight even though I'm not fat and since I have dark hair color I have a mustache and get made fun of all the time. I hate it. At my school I am considered a prep and my best friend is one of the most popular girls at my school. Since she is cool she has a boyfriend who I can't stand and the main reason I hate myself so much. Tonight at a party he made fun of my mustache right in front of everyone including my ex who laughed along with all the other boys. Then my best friend laughed too which what was so bad. Her and her boyfriend have been dating for 9 months so now he becomes before me on everything. He hates that she hangs out with me because I'm ugly and she is starting to think different and I think that we should no longer be frinds. I is really hard to make friends at my school because we are all about groups but I would rather just not be here. I don't know what to do I can't take it anymore I wish that no one knew me I want to change schools but I can't it is terrible. I cry all the time and can't take it. I have no clue I really need help.

HI,

I would think this is another rite of passage for all teens,not to minimize the issue you have ,I was in a lot of smiler circumstances when I was a teen, It made me what I am today.

I found that others made jokes/insulted others because they needed to make themselves look superior, by lowering the others(you) in their friends eyes, did it really work? If your 'friends' think it did, maybe you should talk to them, one on one, and find the truth,make yourself available to criticism, If they truly think you are ugly(which I really doubt),or fat(also doubt) you need friends that are true friends, not the platonic, materialistic types that think looks are more important than morals and a real sense of self.

Be yourself always, there is only one you,if you need to change you for yourself, do it, just don't do it for anyone else.

You will get positive reinforcement, from more real people, as you grow inside.Self esteem/self worth/personal image,its all the same,and comes down to, "Who are you and what do you stand for?" NOT what others say you do.

If you find the need to 'fit in', find a crowd that will accept you for who you are, not what they want you to be, the life you lead from there will be a lot less hectic and will not have the headaches that come from trying to be accepted for something you 'think' you need to be.

I like how you write, that's something those other 'friends' probably wouldn't say,but I am not a teen anymore, just someone online who sees strain that is unnecessary.

Hope this helps,

Ken

Everyone crap for the way they look I have a sort of big nose but when people say crap to me I don't care because lifes to short to stay sad and angry all the time if your trying to get even more thin try not eating lunch and throughing up dinner but maybe eating a apple for breakfast that's what I do it work like a charm

The teenage years are often the worst. It is all about groups, fitting in and being popular. When you get through those years, you will find your classmates were the most unimportant people in you life, but at the same time influence how you feel about yourself the most. I am sure you are not ugly. You are just feeling ugly inside and that is your overall feeling about everyone and yourself right now. Even unattractive people become beautiful when they love themselves. It shows, you will smile and laugh often. Others enjoy being around someone who is happy, positive and smiling. Look at yourself, I am sure you quite pretty. Keep saying to yourself you are beautiful and you will be.
As for the mustache, do not shave it, it will keep coming back and feel funky. Go to the store and get hair removal wax. It hurts, about only for a minute and it will be totally gone. You will have to do it from time to time, but do it. Good Luck, you will be fine.