Ok, here's the deal! I am 23, healthy as far as I know. I am going to the doctor soon to have a little breast lump looked at. I actually don't even know if it's a lump or not. My friend thinks it is nothing. But, better to be safe than sorry, right? Over the last year, I have been, I'm afraid, overacting greatly to some minor health issues. First, a spider bit my ear and a hard lump grew there. The doctor said it was a cyst, don't worry. I obsessed for a year about what if it is a cancerous lump, what if he was wrong etc. Then, it went away on its own over a week or so. The next thing was my eyes, I was sure I had glaucoma. The eye doctor said I was fine. Then it was leukemia. I was sure I had it. I had a swollen lymph node in my neck and felt a little sick. I also had some little bruise stops on my arms. I went to the doc, and I was fine. Just a cold. I obsessed over that forever. The swelling went away and I was fine. Then, I thought I had a black spot on my gum. This time when I went to the dentist, he looked at me like I was crazy and said "There is NOTHING there, black or otherwise." It was just a little vein. Now I think I have this breast lump. My boyfriend and my best friend say I am nuts. They don't feel anything there except normal tissue. I have an appointment made to have it looked at. I keep thinking I have these diseases I don't have. Last year SEVEN people who were very close to me died. (different times, not all at once like in a car wreck or something). I can't help but wonder if I haven't gotten over their deaths. Could that be why I worry about dying so much? I think about whatever symptom I think I have about every 20 min. I've been like this for a year. I've run up huge medical bills that I just now paid off- all for nothing. One of my doctors told me to quit coming back if I was going to make stuff up. I think he though I was a junkie trying to get pain pills or something! That's not what I am at all, I just really worry all the time about my health. What should I do? My boyfriend says he will break up with me if I don't stop this. I have no medical insurance, no family, no college degree and my worst fear is to get a horrible disease and not get treatment because of my lack of insurance. Could this fear be making me think I am sick when I'm not? Is it possible to actually imagine symptoms? Everyone tells me that's what I am doing. My boss told me never to talk to her about this "made- up stuff" again unless I have a paper from a doctor saying I have a disease. (I was only talking to her for moral support, not trying to get time off work or anything like that. She's just a good friend too.) What do you guys think? Am I a hypochondriac? What kind of help can I get for it with no money? Please don't be mean or make fun of me in your answers. So many people are mean to me already about this and other stuff. I really want to stop being this way. Also, whenever I hear about a disease, I think I have it. Like when Gaurdasil came out and was in the papers, I was 100 % convinced I had HPV. I went to the doctor-nothing. Now it's breast cancer awareness month, I think I have breast cancer. It's like I think I have WHATEVER I hear about. Am I crazy? Please help!