Interpretation needed -mind fn the email
Hello. So I broke up with a girl and it was a mistake. Called her a bunch and groveled to her. Told her I loved her and went way overboard. She found someone new and I think he's a rebound but she treats it like she can't break up with anyne because that would hurt them... even though I get the idea she's not that crazy about him. Well I wrote a goodbye letter to her, similar to the one she sends me (below)... well I finally decided to tell her that I'm starting to see some girls. That since she was no longer interested in me I had no choice but to go out and meet some new people. I told her that there was one that seemed nice and treated me well. But, not to worry, we were just hanging out and don't read into things... (the same verbage she used on me 1 month ago). Well she ended up crying at work and emailed me later that night. Could anyone please interpret this email please?? She cried about it and wanted to to know "who" was introducing me...
''''her email titled "good luck to you"
I called your phone a few hours ago and it had nothing to do with you being with another girl. I knew you weren't going to answer your phone, but that was the last time you are going to see my cell number pop up on your cell. I really wish you answered, but I'm sure you got the crazy voice mail from Optomus Prime. I wanted to end off on a funny note.
I have to be completely honest with you; I can't be your friend... at least not right now. I'm not ready for that. I'm glad you are going out with girls and dating, but I really don't want to hear about it. You were the one I wanted to marry and have babies with (you have been the only one that I have felt that way about... EVER!) I really don't want to hear about how you are moving on, hents why I don't like to tell you what's going on in my life. Its not easy to hear therefore I don't want to share it with you. (I never wanted to say anything that would make you sad or cry) I have to admit you made me cry today at work. I had to leave my desk and one of the attorneys followed me outside and asked if I was all right. That's great you are dating a few girls, but you know that I fell hard for you and then you were gone and I was dealing with it alone. I'm in no way asking you to wait for me, I would never ask that of you, but please don't think I am jaded or an unforgiving person. You know I tried very hard to keep US together. The relationship I am in right now made me realize I shouldn't have to work to make the relationship work... and it really makes me sad about you and me. But then again the hard work was worth the year we were together. You know you had my heart and yes you will always have a piece of it. It has been bruised and scared, but I am now looking at them as a learning experience.
I hope nothing but the best for you in life and your career... I have always felt that way. You know I have love for you and that will not change, but I'm not in the situation to be in love with you. I hope this does not upset you in any way...
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Does she still want something with me but is trapped? Or does she not want anything anymore? I'm sure its plain as day but I can't see it. My friends think if I let her think about losing me for a while, she might come around...
