Ihat the life I must live!
Why did it have to be me,
To go through this hell,
All I ever wanted was a life of my own,
Now I can’t even tell.
If this is a dream,
Or if I’m wide awake,
Everyday is so dark and twisted,
I don’t know how much more I can take.
You said you would always be there,
But where were you when I needed you most,
I can’t do this on my own,
Why do I feel like you’re a ghost.
This never ending torment,
Of always feeling like ,
Nothing can change it now,
I’m down from you lethal hit.
None of this makes any sense,
And none of this is fun,
I need someone to help me,
And stop me starring down this loaded gun.
I don’t want to be here anymore,
So one more cut I’ll make,
Waiting for the day it will all end,
And my precious life I’ll take.
Up until that day,
I'll screw my life up more,
Taking all those drugs,
And cutting like before.
No one can stop me,
This is what I was meant to do,
I guess I was supposed to be this messed up,
And always this blue.