So I've come to the decision to let go. Even though I have been good and happy, even though I have missed her. I have made the decision to let go of her completely. And really mean and feel what I say. I can't harbour these emoitions any longer. I don't have it in me to try to care. It has been hard to come to realize this but it is what I must do to move forward. When I think of her it holds me back and I can't move forward. I guess I'm just letting go it is near imposible for me to say that. But I'm doing it. I might not have control of her and I but I do have control over me and my thoughts. I must let her go completely with no thought of her return. Even though I know she will return this way of thinking is stoping today. No longer will I think of it because I don want it. Im proud of myself and I might miss the thought of what could have been I am faced with reality of what is..
Have a good day people.