Basically ill try and explain as briefly as I can... im in a mess -

I feel lonely and depressed! I've been involved with a few lads over the past year, I have never actually got with any of them, as I am petrified of commitment! I find myself becoming VERY easily attached to lads, as I enjoy the attention they give me, yet the lads I attract are the wrong type. The latest I REALLY fell for, we even managed to go on a few dates before I pulled out, he didn't understand why, but I couldn't explain my feelings and issues to him as to why I'm scared of commitment (as I will only be able to do that to the lad I truly trust and can actually be with) I do have my good reasons though.

Secondly I am one of those girls who HATE themselves, so that depresses me, I am always worrying what people think of me, etc and I can't help but think I'm fat, I try to diet as I want to loose weight, but because I'm SO down I end up eating RUBBISH, which in the past few weeks has caused me to gain weight, people don't understand how I feel though as they tell me I'm thin and stupid and there's nothing of me, but I disagree, I joined weight watchers and I'm paying out yet just not attending because I'm scared. I can't understand why I can't loose the weight because I REALLY WANT to, but chocolate breaks my will power!

Thirdly and this is one of the main reasons I'm writing on here, is because I have just started uni, a new life, a new start and I have managed to get rid of all the lads once and for all, even though I don't want to for attention reasons, I know its for the best, but now I feel so INCREDIBLY lonely all the time, I have no one to text and my mates aren't the type that will sit down and have a heart to heart with me.

My main issue is that I'm paying so much to be at uni, yet I'm not bothered, my mind is ALWAYS else where and I'm not even doing the work, I told myself id put EVRYTHIN into it at uni as the last yr in college was when I went downhill getting myself invovled with lads etc and I knew I needed to change my ways!

I just hate my life, yet I have great ambitions and I have no one to talk to and now I have no lads after me I feel weak and totally alone, and vulnerable!

Please help me!

So you just want someone to talk to, we could tlk about uni because I'm a fresher as well

Boy no that feeling just be thankful you have yrs to heal or yrs just to change you just can't pick 1 thing like weight to blame you might have b. o. or something else that your not noticing start looking at every angle and change it!

I'm sure you don't have b.o there are guys interested rite so its not them its you I have the same problem plenty of guys but push them away. And you should find new mates from uni and not only share your struggles with uni but if you get close enough you can have heart to heart convos with them