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I mean I love the guy I'm with but I'm young he's older and I need to live life more and experience it right ? :confused:

But than I know there no chance with my ex "first love " :( so why bother?

Than I like this girl sbut she's straight.. but doesn't mind gay or bi sexuals is there any chance honeslt :confused:

You sound like you want it all! Fair enough, but you have to accept that in life we have to make choices, and with any choice there is always a price no matter what path you choose.