In love but having to let go sumone I have no future with
Im not into this stuff,another sob story, but here goes
I met this guy, whom I did not think I would possibly fall for, somehow he managed to win me over, I have a strong heart and will, and analyze motives of guys who asks me out as well as if I see a future with them before going further..
Maybe its this phobia I have with being hurt, hence d extreme measures,
Anyway I met this guy early this year, we both had been hurt before and didn’t want to go through it again, marriage came up very quickly, he is the first person in 28 yrs I’ve spoke to my family about, and I did not see or probably was blinded to 1 aspect that would create no future for us,, we could not reach a compromise and decided to part in May, though till few days ago keeping in touch regularly, sometimes even telling each other they are still missed and luved
I was preparing myself, to accept he will meet someone else sumday, however when he told me on Sunday, he was out on his first date, I can't describe how it felt,
I did not show him how hurt I was, in fact I showed him I was happy he met sumone, but inside, my heart was hurting so much and it still does, it hurts to know he’s gone and will be spending his life wit sumone else
I know time heals, but d healing seems to come so slow, I know I'm speaking to soon as its only 3 days,
Am drowning my sadness in sleep, because every time I'm awake he’s on my mind, feel like a zombie