Well where do I start, I'm 38 and about 5 months ago I told my wife that things aren't working out and we split up, (no I don't want her back!). Three weeks ago I lost my job, I now have my house up for sale because I can't afford the mortgage, I have my car for sale to try to make ends meet. I have children that I haven't seen for ages and mutually couldn't care if they did again. My mum died when I was 17 and I don't get on with many family members and I have very few people that I call friends. So what have I got to live for, well nothing really, why should I live to pay bills, no one would really miss me, sure they'll cry for a while but they don't really care. Im sick of putting a fake smile on my face, Ive led a simple life, never done drugs and rarely drink, Ive tried to be a good husband and father but sadly failed, so this is goodbye and good luck to everyone, hopefully in another life we'll meet up. X

I don't who you are, but I've asked God to send you some peace and to help you out!

[QUOTE=SUICIDAL SID]Well where do I start, I'm 38 and about 5 months ago I told my wife that things aren't working out and we split up, (no I don't want her back!). Three weeks ago I lost my job, I now have my house up for sale because I can't afford the mortgage, I have my car for sale to try to make ends meet. I have children that I haven't seen for ages and mutually couldn't care if they did again. My mum died when I was 17 and I don't get on with many family members and I have very few people that I call friends. So what have I got to live for, well nothing really, why should I live to pay bills, no one would really miss me, sure they'll cry for a while but they don't really care. Im sick of putting a fake smile on my face, Ive led a simple life, never done drugs and rarely drink, Ive tried to be a good husband and father but sadly failed, so this is goodbye and good luck to everyone, hopefully in another life we'll meet up. X

If you have no ties worth mentioning why don't you abandon your possessions and go travelling. Work from place to place to afford the next ticket. Who said you had to have a house, wife and kids to make you happy?

I know this sounds a bit extreme but then so is suicide.

There are solutions to your outlook and problems, perhaps you need professional help to identify them. Visit a doctor, see what they say. You have nothing to lose by going.

Phone a local suicide line and speak to the person there.

I'm not a professional but I do want to try and make you see that there are always other options. There are other ways to be happy, you just haven't found them yet.

Have you ever had any ambitions to go anywhere, see anything, do anything?

You live in England or Canada or Australia? (You used the word "mum" so I'm guessing you aren't in the U.S.)

You write well and use good grammar etc. so you must have been a good student. What about working in a library? Libraries always need smart people who have good customer service skills. (Hmmmm, I used the word "good" three times in this paragraph... )

A friend of mine was footloose and fancy-free (no wife, kids, house, car) and traveled all over the country, picking up odd jobs at retreats and camps etc. He got to see lots of scenery and also got to meet many interesting people. If I weren't old and stuck, I would love to be 38 again and have the freedom to do something like that.

This time of your life is the perfect opportunity to try something new! Your glass is full to overflowing with possibilities!

Hey hang in there!! U just got to have faith and I know u'll work things out.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way.
I can't help but agree with those who mentioned "traveling".
Just '''change''' the direction you're contemplating to another "road".

I wish you the best and pray for your well being!

Hey u just said that no body really cares if this were true then why r all of these people writing to you or looking out for you? Cause we do really care! Hang in there!

-meg

I agree with templelane. I really don't have anything left to live for and
I have been thinking for the past few years why follow the accepted 'norm'
Society sets as a standard. I have been thinking it would be nice to travel
And maybe join an organization like Habitat for Humanity or one that goes
Around helping hurricane victims or homeless people.

If you could, like my friend did, find an organization that will feed you and put a roof over your head and give you work to do -- work that benefits others.

My friend had become a monk for a year, just to try out that life. He worked in their stonecutting business, prayed and sang with the other monks, ate with them, etc.

My coworker's daughter joined a commune (an "intentional community") in southern Missouri - East Wind near Tecumsah, MO. They share all the labor of the commune, raise organic food, and make wonderful nut butters to sell. They are looking for new members too. They will even let you try it out for three weeks to see if you want to join. This is in the northern part of the Ozarks so the area is gorgeous. They have a website -- East Wind Community: Home