Okay here is how it goes... I cheated on my ex boyfriend( he use to beat me) with this guy called levi for 3 yrs it was on and off thou. But this guy levi was really sweet and he always treated me with respect and he cared about . But I was "inlove with my ex" so I would always push him away. So I stop talking to him for like a year. And now he came back to my life, but he's the one with the girlfriend now that lives with him. So now I'm was the secret lover and I don't like it. We would see each other everyday while he was working we would go to the hotel, out to eat and sometimes at night when he could out to dance. I finally got tired because I was never the second girl, I told him to pick me or her. He told me he didn't love here but that she loves him a lot and that he don't really know if I loved him or not so why would I leave someone that I love for someone that I don't even know if they love me. Week later she caught him, she read our text messages.
She called me crying and I told her that we were talking but that we never ed which is a lie. And I told her he's the one that looks for me. I was pissed and I told him to leave me alone and that he made he's decision already. 3 months passed and I called him and know where back in the same page. But now I'm going to try to get him because he was mine first and I know he loves me because he would'nt cheat on here right? And I know he only hooked up with her because he was lonely because he has no family here and she only wants to be with him because he's rich hell. So I'm going to try to get him back!! I don't think this is wrong because she's just a girlfriend not a wife and they have no kids together.what do you think? Should I give up? Should I try? Am I doing wrong? Please tell me I need help!