I have just ended my 7 year relationship with my boyfriend because I feel I can't trust him.Problem is I still love him and I am finding it so hard to move on.He is the love of my life and I feel that my heart has been ripped from my chest.
2 years into our relationship we starting having problems and one night had a huge fight and he packed his things and left.Less than 1 hour after the fight he was with a prostitute, a friend of mine caught him out accidentally and that's how I found out.He didn't apologise he justified it by saying that we had broken up so he wasn't really cheating, and that he knew if I found out, the relationship would really be over.But he then spent the next 12 weeks begging me to take him back.
For the past 5 years we have tried, but I still have so many issues on what happened, it has made me feel so insecure and affected my confidence.It has made me think that every time we break up he goes off with someone.He even told me in anger one time that he has slept with other women when we have broken up.I am angry that he betrayed what we had.
We are not kids and have been married before, we are in our late 40's so you think we should be able to sort our sh*t out.
How can I heal and become whole again... please someone guide me... help me

7 years is a lot to get over, but it starts with cutting contact and building a life you enjoy, and making yourself happy. Please follow the links in my signature, for some good insights and ideas, of how to heal from a break up.