My first lesbian relationship left me.
I was 35 when I met Emily and never had been attracted to women before her, but after a year of friendship I realized that I liked her more than a friend, and she felt the same. She moved in with me and we were together for almost 2 years until this past July when she broke up with me. I moved away but still thought maybe with time apart we would find ourselves back together. I emailed her a week ago to let her know how I was feeling and she informed me she is already in another relationship and she knows this is her last one. She said the same thing about our relationship. She also told me she knew after 6 months of going with me that we wouldn't be long term. Why did she stay with me then? I feel like a year and a half of us being together was a lie. I really did love her and it hurts to know she didn't love me. Her past 3 relationships includning me were never with a woman before and this new woman she is seeing wasn't gay either, in fact she was engaged to a man until now and she has a kid, that my ex coaches softball with. Why does she go after straight women. She totally turned my world upside down. I had so many questions about now am I gay or bi? How could she play with peoples lives like she does and doesn't seem to care about my feelings. I know I need to get over it, but this was my first serious relationship and I was planning on spending the rest of my life with her. Every time I think I am fine, I hear a song or something will remind me of her. I keep looking for answers as to why someone would do this? Does anybody have any advice? Thanks.
