Well here is the thing my husband looks at other women on the computer like porn. When Im sittting right there. Im 22 months pregers and I just start going off like he doesn't want me. We have a 19 month old now and he is always home with me. Im a stay at home mother and my other half is in the military. So here I am think to myself and let me tell you this is not the first time I feel like killing myself. Am I crazzy? What do I do I always feel that everything is my falt. I don't have any family here where we live and I don't know anyone. I don't go looking for anything at all. I feel like crawling in a dark hole and just going to sleep hopeing that someone never finds me. I don't even feel like I want to be pregnant. Is there anyone out there that can help me? What is going on with me.

Hun, it sounds like you need to talk to your doctor, and soon! Obviously we don't want you thinking about killing yourself or acting on it! You seem to be very depressed and it doesn't sound like your home life is all that great. Schedule an emergency appt with your ob and tell him/her everything that you are feeling. These feelings aren't normal, but they aren't uncommon. The best thing you can do is get some help for yourself. Your doc will probably have you go and talk to someone. Don't feel ashamed or embarrassed, just go and talk with them. They may put you on meds that are safe to take during pregnancy. You are NOT crazy, simply hormonal and depressed. The best thing you can do for you and your baby is to get to your doctor's as quickly as possible. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. You can always send me a message if you need to talk.

Again, great answer automansgirl. surferstar2004 you are experiencing depression, and you need to get to your doctor immediately.