So stressful (Tons of homework and more)
I am a sophomore at high and already on the second day I have so much homework. This isn't the problem though. I'll do my best to not swear or say anything bad.
I am currently taking:
Finance
AP History
Spanish 3
Honors English
Acc Advanced Algebra 2
Honors Chemistry
My problem is I don't want to do Honors English, my mom signed me and faked my signature.
I have tried to get it changed for months but they said they couldn't do anything about it until the first day of school.
On the first day I went to my councilor and I told her and she had my mom write a letter.
It took me 3 hours to get it by fighting for 3 hours
Then the Vice Principle makes me wait a hour to tell me and I can't switch out.
He said I made a commitment and that I have to switch out at the end of the semester.
I am already stressed out with all the other classes. I can't handle one more, if I have to do them all I'm going to run away from this place and never return. I am truly working my hardest but I'm not that smart. It takes me a long time to do something when it takes someone else 5 min.
My mom chooses all of my classes it and I can't take it anymore, its taking everything in my to not through this computer at the window.
I tried to tell my mom that I have a lot of problems already and I won't be abe to handle all this and if I have too, I'm just going to end everything.
She just chuckled and said I'm immature. Because I never planned to do the class I never did a big project during the summer.
I mean I was told I could leave the class. The VP said I can have a later date to turn the project in but its not the project or grade I care about.
I simply just can't handle the class, I mean ill do the project to get out of the class.
Just for 3 classes of homework, last night I had 5 hours of homework. I don't no if that seems like nothing to most of you, but I have never had home for the past 4 years. I always worked hard to get it done in class. I struggle a lot in English and Science and when I finally get those grades up I am forced to take all these much harder classes.
My mom always tells everyone about how my sister is so smart and I tell her I'm sorry I'm not her and she just laughs.
She never takes anything serious I say.
I just want to get out of honors class, its not like I'm taking gym or anything.
If I can't get out I'm going to do some dangerous. I am so mad right now, I'm not really asking a question here I just need to vent since no one else would listen.
I ripped up my english homework, he's making us write a big essay tomorrow and I won't be able to do it now without the thing I had to read. I don't care if I fail this and my life is screwed up I don't plan on being around much longer. I use to get all d's and f's and I was happy then and I'm going to be happy again or I'm not going to feel any emotions.
I'd go run as far as I could if I didn't have a lot of homework. If this problem isn't solved then I'm just going to go tell my mom "Thanks for messing up my life" and then ill be gone. And I'd never go back, ill go live behind kmarts for all I care.
It's a good thing my family doesn't have a gun, else I wouldn't be talking right now.
Im going to talk to this VP again. I can't tell him how I feel because then he'll have me talk to someone and then ill be more messed up.
Sorry again, I know there is no question I just needed to say this.
I guess ill start my homework.
Im so afraid that my brother will come in and be his stupid self making fun of me for not taking his easy classes and I will probably beat him up a lot worse than just brother fights.
Before I was typing this I got my paintball gun of full velocity to shoot him with it when he comes in. That will probably make me happy.